Last night one of my besties, Jilly Bean, came to town for a visit.
I am on the left and Jill is on the right. We went to a local watering hole to meet up with some other friends for a couple of beverages. We then stopped by a mutual friend’s pad to hang out & catch up, at which point we went to a different pub which tends to have the reputation of a meat market.
I felt so out of place and then the evaluating eyes began to scan me & my friend over from different directions. I was approached a couple of times within the heinous half hour of our brief stay and all the frustrating feelings of how it felt to be single & on the search came rushing back to me.
The hours I had previously invested in online dating. The disappointment of meeting in person for the first time, to having to deal with so many arrogant men who were as plastic as the credit cards they carried.
It made me sad and it made me miss Brian, and as happy as I was to spend time with my girlfriend Jill, I would have been happier staying in with her watching a movie or drinking prosecco listening to some tunes at home.
The disappointment and let downs of dating and the fickle men who adored me one moment and then changing their mind after a few months or a few dates and that feeling of “does the one even exist”?
The many arguments and debates I encountered because of having a faith I practice, and no one respecting or caring why it was important to me.
When I met Brian I was not hopeful that we would work out. I assumed he would lose interest after a few weeks or that something was epically wrong with him. I never thought I would be saying a year later that this man was has been my rock, has been loyal & kind and looking out for my best interests.
I am not bragging about having Brian, I think I am incredibly lucky, blessed and I hope I remember this when I am feeling a bit bored or wishing we could do more fun activities, as I don’t think I can date again. I was exhausted from dating when I first met Brian. I was at a point where I didn’t want to try anymore and didn’t even want to try him.
So, to all the ladies out there if ever for a moment you think that you want to enter the single life dating scene again – make sure you really want out of what you presently have going on. As the grass isn’t greener. If you have a good man, stand by his side and let him know how much you love and appreciate him.
Dating in the 21st century is not as much fun as it appears. You have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince.
Peace & love – Rachel
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